Stories of Lost Children
My little angel "Tori Nicole"
by Hope Myers, New Orleans, Louisiana, U.S.A.
When I first found out I was pregnant, I was not thrilled. I have two children 8 and 4. The timing was off. However, I began to start enjoying my pregnancy. I went to get an ultrasound at 5 months. They noticed something wrong with the baby's heart. I was referred to a specialist. He did an echo and found that the baby had Triscuspid Aterisa. He tried to relieve me of all fears. I felt better after he answered all questions. My first child was born with a heart defect however I did not know until she was born. Should anyone see her today, you would not think that anything was wrong with her. I believed that Tori would have been the same way. Due to knowing about the heart condition, my doctor scheduled a c-section. My husband and I arrived on time at the hospital. Tori was born on 6/19/01. She weighed 6lbs and 10oz. The parientolgist took her immediately. Tori was born breach. I heard her crying. The parientologist took her immediately due to her turning blue. I was also scheduled to have a tubal ligation. The doctor asked me if I wanted to get my tubes tied if the baby did not make it. My huband responded "yes" with anger. The nurse wheeled me to NICU where I could see her. By the time I saw her she was sedated. Tori had to be taken to another hospital. Later that day the hospital called me to ask for permission to perform open heart surgery. I gave them permission. My husband went to be with her. He spent the night with her and I called constantly to check on her. On 6/21/01 at 8:30 I received a phone call from the cardiologist asking if there was some way I could be discharged because she was afraid Tori would not make it through the night. For some reason, Tori's lungs were not working. My husband called our pastor, family members, and bible study group. I cried and cried for I never got to see Tori with her eyes open nor did I get to hold her. Tori died 6/22/01 at 6:43. I did not want them to perform an autopsy on her. I felt she had been through to much. Although, I have pictures of her, I miss her so much. I wish she was here. I know she is with God but my heart aches for her. No one seems to understand how I feel. I have lost my precious little angel and the abilty to have any more children. I thank God for my two girls but I still hurt for my little Tori.
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