Stories of Lost Children
Born Sleeping Precious Girl
by Natasha Whitcomb, Mustang, OK, U.S.A.
I went to the hospital 6 days before my due date with contractions. They checked me and I was dilated to a 2. They listened for a heart beat and there was none. I remember feeling confused. I couldn't wrap my mind around why there was no heart beat. I cried for a while. I chose to have her normal no c section. I remember them asking me do I want her after. I didn't know what to say . So u said no. After I had my baby girl , I cried and cried. Finally they brought her to me and reality hit that she was really gone. And I couldn't change it. We dressed her in her clothes and took pictures. She was so beautiful. She never cried so never seem me, she never seen me love her. My husband freaked out and since then he has held it in like me. Until now I was not able to verbalize what I was feeling. I remember having to let her go. It was so hard but she was changing. She was changing color and it was making me worse.
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