Stories of Lost Children
Empty
by K., Hazel Park, MI, U.S.A.
Back in 2003 I was 11 weeks pregnant. I started to spot wet and had an ultrasound and there was no heart beat. After that, it was really hard to think about having other children. I realized I was pregnant again in 2004 and at 9 weeks had an ultrasound and no heart beat.. That was a blow to my heart very hard. It took a while to get pregnant again I was scared. We decided to try again and we did everything was going great. I was going to the doctor's office for my 27 week blood sugar test and after that was all done they went to listen to the heart beat and nothing. I could not believe what was happening to us. At that moment I told the doctor to try again and she did and nothing they told us we had to go to the hospital to have an ultrasound done we did and nothing. That night they induced labor and at 7:46am Jan 27, 2004 I deliverd a beautiful baby girl Jordyn Diane. I have never felt so empty in my whole life. I am now trying to deal with all of my feelings and I am not sure how or when the hurting will stop. I know it doesn't happen overnight but I don't know how much more pain I can deal with. Need help
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