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Stories of Lost Children
Tinkerbell is in Heaven
by Karli Lintner, Glendale, AZ, U.S.A. My "Tinkerbell" was only 13 months old. Her name is Alyssa Paige. She stopped breathing at the baby sitter's home. She was air-evacced to the hospital. They were never able to get her heart started again. I still don't know the cause of death and it has almost been a month. I'm told it could be another 4 months before I know anything. There was no warning. She had a mild cold the week before but nothing to cause concern. Did I miss something? I sometimes wonder if I didn't see something because I was working and stressed out and trying to be a good mother and a good teacher to my classroom. I have a surviving child, Lexi who is 4. She is also devastated and I am trying to be strong for her. My husband has gone silent. His way of dealing with this, I guess. Lyssa was such a beautiful girl, as beautiful as your own departed baby. She had enormous blue eyes and a smile that made everyone smile in return. She had an infectious giggle and the funniest personality. She lit up every room she was in and just took control. She marched to the beat of her own drum. She was truly amazing. So strong and so sweet and loving. She just reminded me of Tinkerbell; small, loyal, caring and strong.
I try to find comfort in the fact that she is with God now and that she is in the happiest place. I miss her soo much sometimes that it seems impossible to bear it much longer. Then my other daughter looks at me and I realize that there is someone else who needs me so much more than ever before. I have looked to God for guidance to help me get through this. I also continue to try and find those who
are suffering as I am. I wish you all some measure of comfort as I try and seek it for myself as well. God Bless you, Karli
Tinkerbell's Loving Mother
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