Stories of Lost Children
Pennies from Heaven
by Jillian Cooper, Bloomsburg, PA, U.S.A.
I was only 19 years old when I found out that I was pregnant with my first child. I was very scared and didn't know what my boyfriend would say. When he found out about me being pregnant he didn't want nothing to do with me. He and I both knew that this was our child. I didn't have any signs of a pregnancy until I was 5 months into it. I was way past a lot of tests that I think could have helped my daughter to survive. When I went to the doctors, he did all the tests that he could and even gave me an ultrasound that he had to pull strings to get. My daughter was considered an emergency case and everytime that I had an appointment, I was hooked upto a fetal heart monitor to make sure that she was still ok. My doctor also informed me that my daughter was very healthy and that she was growing very well and that she was forming very well. When my water broke on December 31st of 2001 I was very happy. I could not wait to hold my daughter and get to see how much she looked like her father and I. My daughter, Madyson Renee Cooper, was born at 10:24 pm and was born with the umbilical cord around her neck. It was cut and she cried; it made me feel so happy. While the doctor was sewing me up, I listened to my daughter cry and sneeze; this was like my birthday all over again. Then all of the sudden she started to wheeze and the doctor told the nurses to get her to the nursery and finish up over there. I asked the doctor what was going on and she told me that my baby was ok and not to worry. At about 11:30 p.m. the doctor came back into my room and told me that my daughter had passed away because her lung collapsed. Her father and I had to hold our daughter after she had already passed away. Now ever since that night my life hasn't been the same. Her father regrets never being there for me and he and I are taking it hard, but my mom believes that when you see a penny on the ground it is from heaven, so now everytime her or I see a penny on the ground we pick it up and know that it is from my precious baby, Madyson Renee. Mommy & Daddy love you and miss you angel!
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