My precious son Ryan was stillborn on the 3rd July 2006, gestation age of 37 weeks and 3 days. It was the most horrible day of my life as I held my beautiful and perfect son in my arms. Ryan got to stay with me and my partner and family for several hours before we had to let him go for an autopsy. Til today, I still cannot believe Ryan has left. I would at night still dream that he is still with me. The hardest thing for me to accept is that I will never get to see my beautiful son smiling back at me. But I believe Ryan is in a better place and will be in my heart and mind forever. Ryan, mummy and daddy miss and love you very much! Mummy still clearly remembers the first time we saw your heartbeat on the ultrasound; daddy and mummy were so thrilled and happy. The whole family were waiting for your arrival and you would have brought so much joy and happiness into our lives.
My prince, mummy is still struggling to get by day by day without you here but mummy knows you are watching over us from heaven and that you are happy and peaceful with god taking care of you. My little angel, thank you for visiting us for the last 37 weeks. Your little marks of life inside mummy will never ever be forgotten.
Mummy and daddy send you thousands kisses and hugs. Mummy and daddy will always remember you in our hearts Ryan.
