Stories of Lost Child
Siblings
Sentiments of a 15 Year Old Sibling
by Jeanelle Sprauve-Gar, Baltimore, U.S.A.
May 14, 2006 marked not only Mother's Day for my family, but also what would have been my youngest son's 5th birthday. He died on July 23, 2006, claimed by SIDS. My 15 year old, who was the one who discovered that something was wrong with the baby on the day of his death, shared the following sentiments. She has kept her feelings and emotions bottled up for the past five years, but allowed this much after she and I visited the gravesite on May 14th. The following are her sentiments, written later that evening.
On May 14, 2001
God sent my brother, friend, and son
And only he knew that on July 23, 2001
Life on earth for my mother's son would be done Me not knowing that i would be the one to find Something that would scar my mind for all time
Not knowing that after 5 years it would still hurt as if it were that day Not understanding that my mom was hurting in the same way To see one of the strongest people I know Break down from head to toe hurt my heart so
I used to wonder, God, why?
Just why did he have to die?
But now its more like when
Lord, when will I see him again?
My love
Was called by God to sit high above
As my mother and I laid by the gravesite Trying to fight and fight The tear drops still came down
But it was okay because it was only me, him, and our mom around It might sound crazy but he was there Saying, 'Sis and mommy I didn't go anywhere, so dry your tears, I'm right here!"
As I turned to my left watching my mother trying to stay strong All I could think of was my chorus' song "Keep the faith and hold to it, Lift your head and go on through it'
It's like so many people lose loved ones and ones they care for
BUT FOR ME
IT
SEEMS LIKE
I
LOST SO MUCH MORE
(written by Jeanelle Sprauve-Garner May 14, 2006)
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