Stories of Lost Child
Siblings
The Day My World Changed Forever
by J.C., Milton , Canada
This past February (2005), I not only lost my only sibling but my son's aunt and my best friend and most of all a huge piece of myself. My sister Michelle was diagnosed with a brain tumor at 16 in 2003. Despite 4 surgeries, many different forms of chemo, radiation, losing her hair, and slowly losing her everyday ability to read, walk, even dress herself and many more forms of pain and suffering I can't even begin to describe. In October of 2004 just before the birth of my son the doctors cried as they told us there was nothing left they could do. I looked at my sister in tears as she asked what it will be like to die. I could see the fear in her eyes and for once in my life. I was helpless and there was nothing I could say to make it better. Then it hit me she was leaving me. After that day we tried everything to make what time she had left special. She married her boyfriend and soulmate Kevin. She and I spent almost everyday together as I was on maternity leave after having a beautiful baby boy (Michael after Michelle). She was so proud of him and her biggest fear was he would never know her (it was mine too!). Months went by and she started to get sicker and finally there I was sitting by her bed trying to think of what to say to her as she lay there gasping for every last breath. To this day it is a blur what was all said other than I will never be the same without her because her and I were the only two people on earth who had the exact same blood from the same parents and she could never be replaced and I will always love her. Then as I left the room I went outside and for the first time in months, maybe even years I prayed to God to end her suffering. Minutes later I felt a tap on my shoulder. It's Kevin "she's gone" he says. At that moment I burst into the room crying and shaking her hoping I was dreaming. But I wasn't, she was gone. My sister and my best friend was gone and my life was forever changed.
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