Stories of Lost Children
Madison Lynn 37 weeks
by C.B., Richland, WA, U.S.A.
It was friday the 13th I had noticed that I hadn't felt any kicks all morning. I had felt her the night before when I went to bed. Usually she slept a lot through out the day. So I had something to eat drank some cold water and lied down to count kicks. I tried everything candy tapping on my belly. Worried I called and went to the hospital. They couldn't find a heart beat. I was scheduled to have her only 11 days to go. I went home and had a long sleepless night. The next morning was the hardest thing I had ever and will ever do having a c section knowing. I ended up having a panic attack. They found out somehow she had tied her cord into a complete knot. I don't even know how a baby can do that? I have been going through many stages now anger, blame myself, say if only...
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