Stories of Lost Children
You Never Get To Say Goodbye
by Mary Fultz, Monticello, Indiana, U.S.A.
I have a great love for children and have always wanted to be a mother. This is for all the mothers who have lost babies before they were born. I have lost 4 babies. One had died in 1993, and the other 3 were all within 18 months of themselves between 1996-1997. This really hard for me to write. But here I go. My third baby was the only one i got to see in after it died. She was in the hospital bed with me, but no one seemed to care. She was only 14 weeks growth when I went into labor with her. I drove myself to the hospital at 5:30 in the morning, and they put me into a room they use for rape cases, all by myself, there I was for over 2 hours scared, not having anyine I could call, alone. My baby girl was born around 7:45 a.m. that day. The doctor told me could go home. and that was that. But when I was getting cleaned up to go home, there was my poor little girl in the bed. I knew it was her, because I could see her little fingers and her little face. She was only a few inches long, but she was my baby. I then went in to a deep depression, and only now 4 years later being able to allow myself to think about my babies all of them. People say it was GOD's will, I don't beleive it. GOD would not do this to a mother and child, to seperate them like this. So when people tell you "it's GOD's will" don't beleive them. I didn't.
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