Stories of Lost Children
My Baby Boy Dylan
by J.R., Toronto, ON, Canada
I remember the day my son was born. July 24,2007. He was the first born male in 3 generations. I loved his little face, hands, feet and red hair. He was perfect! Everything a mother could want in a baby boy! He was always a shining light to anyone who walked pasted him. He touch everyone's heart by just a simple smile. I loved the way he said Mama and open the door when his big sister would lock him out of the bedroom. He was always into everything. Climbing up whatever he could. I always had to move around the furniture. Dylan and his sister where going on a visit with their dad to grandma's house for Easter. It was my weekend to have the kids but I knew my daughter wanted to see her grandma since she lives 2 hours away. That good friday when I said good bye to my son for the weekend I felt really horrible about it. I didn't want them to leave. I never felt so upset like this before when they went for a visit. April 11, 2009 I got a phone call from the emergency room. I had missed the call. I listened to the message thinking my daughter broke her arm or something small like that. I was shaking because I could not get through to the hospital so I finally got a hold of their father. He was freaking out and told me Dylan wasn't breathing. I couldn't understand him. Finally a nurse came on the phone and told me I had to get to the hospital. I talked to their father again and he told me my baby boy had died. He had drowned in the tube. My stomach hurt so much I could not stand. My sister and I drove up there. It was the longest 2 hours of my life. I did not know what to do. I remember seeing him there with all his tubes. I just felt his skin and kissed him. It was soooo crazy and still is. I am lucky to have amazing people for support in my life to hold me down. But all I want to do is hold him and feel his skin. I miss him soooo much it kills. Thank god for my daughter. I just want him back. I know he is with me still. I can feel him in the wind and when I'm by the water. I can feel is warmth wrap around me. Please contact me if you want to share stories and be understood jillian_baby@hotmail.com I love you sooooo much lil man. We will be together again one day! Mama loves you xoxoxoxo
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