Stories of Lost Children
Braden, Mommy's Little Angel
by Ashley, Carthage, IN, U.S.A.
Hi, my name is Ashley I am 23 years old. I had my first son Braden, when I was 17. Yes 17 is a little young to have a child, but he was my lil man. We were together for 5 short years. It was January 2, 2008, that would become the worst day in my entire life, and forever be in my mind. It was about 9 am i guess, I am not forsure really what time it was. Braden, came in the room and woke me up, I jumped up because he startled me. He said mommy, the house is on fire. As soon as I jumped up, I instantly heard the smoke alarm, but i could barely hear it. I screamed and woke up my boyfriend Josh, and he told me to grab the baby. We had a 7 month old also. So, I grabbed the baby out of his crib, grabbed braden by his hand and we tried to get out of our room by the second door we had that led into our "family room". When Josh opened the door the room then filled with even more smoke. Josh then went to the bedroom windown and began to try and break the window, he got it broke and he stepped out and I handed him the baby and reached back to grab Braden and put him out the window. I couldn't find him, somewhere in the mix of everything braden let go of my hand and I lost him. I stayed as long as I could in the room and searched and screamed for my Braden. I couldn't find him, and I couldn't hear him. I got pulled out by Josh because the house was an inferno. I regret still to this day that I didn't stay and search for him more. It's only been 7 months, and it feels like a lifetime that I have been without Braden. He was 5 and he was in kindergarten. He was so full of energy and loved being a big brother. I still dont know how to handle my grief. I see a counselor and she gave me The Compassionate Friends website, and I found this website from there. If there is anyone out there, that would want to talk to me, that knows what I am going through, please, email me at bigbootygrl6907@yahoo.com (I appologize for the email account..it was made for me by my boyfriend). Braden, Mommy misses you very much, and thinks about you everyday, your always in my thoughts and prayers. RIP Bubby, Mommy loves you. In loving memory of Braden Eugene Westmoreland
3-18-02/01-02-2008 We will NEVER forget you. Love Always and Forever, Mommy
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