Stories of Lost Children
My Little Angel Miss Cassidy Noelle :)
by S.D., Bronx, N.Y., U.S.A.
It's been a little over a month and I still remember what you smell like. I miss you sooooo much words can NEVER describe how I feel. Tears are streaming down my eyes as I write you Cassidy Noelle. I just knew that I had the cutest little name for you. I couldn't wait to call it. Who knew that in such short a time you could have an impact on my whole life. I love you more then anything in this world. March 1, 2008 @ 5:05 a.m is when you came into this world. It will always be a remembrance to me. The same way that I saw life come into this world is the same way I saw death take you from it. The look on the sonographer's still plays in my mind. That blank look of not knowing how to tell me that she couldn't see or hear your heartbeat. It was written on her face. Sitting there waiting for her to call the doctor felt like eternity. I knew that something was wrong but I had to hear the words come out of her mouth cause then I would know that it was real. What happened???? You were just fine that Monday before. I had your going home outfit all ready for you. Your homecoming was very much anticipated. I couldn't wait to see the little person that I only saw on the sonogram/ultrasound. I couldn't wait to hold you in my arms and see who you looked like. My pregnancy was just too good to be true and NEVER anytime did I ever complain. Carrying you was probably the most time that I felt as Sexy and Beautiful ever. You agreed with me. You agreed with what I ate, when we slept. You were me. Never ever did I feel alone as long as you were in me and now I just feel so empty. There is a void in my life now that you are not here. How do I continue to move on???
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