Stories of Lost Children
Once Again I Failed
by T., Bladensburg, MD, U.S.A.
Back in 2004 I lost my precious daughter Kirs'lynn Federick. I submitted her story "Incomplete Family" on the site in 2004. Now after I finally started to accept her homegoing. I suffer another loss. Kirs'lynn has a twin brother named K'lynn who I am blessed to say he is Three years old and he is as bright as they come, He doesn't have all the problems the doctors said he would endure. Not at all!! I got pregnant again with twins in March of this year but because of my fear with having them and going through the many issues I had with my previous pregnancy; I unfortunately terminated my pregnancy.
I seriously and honestly regretted that decision. But around my 21st birthday I had another surprise. I was once again pregnant with twins. That made three sets in the past three years. I told myself I was going to get through this. I had the support of my family and friends. I did everything right once gain and when the pregnancy became high risk I quit my job. When I turned 18weeks I noticed no movement went to the emergency room and found out that one of the twins were still born. Found out they were going to have stay in the same sac together if I wanted the other baby to make it. Everything was good until 20 weeks came and I didn’t feel movement. Went to the emergency room on November 19th and the other twin didn’t have a heartbeat too! I had to have a c section because I cannot have vaginals anymore. I’m going through hell here. I feel like I really DISAPPOINTED EVERYONE AGAIN. Everyone is feeling it especially me. I can’t believe it! I don’t even want anymore children.
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