Stories of Lost Children
My Precious Little Angel
by Julie, Crane, MO, U.S.A.
I lost my daughter when she was 7 weeks old, on May 24th 2003. The night before I had stayed up until three for her feeding and then proceeded to go to bed as usual. If only I had known what i would wake up to. She was not alive when I woke up the next morning. All I could do was scream; I performed CPR until rescue workers arrived and took her away from me. There are no words to describe my state of mind at the time. I had to go to the hospital where they pronounced her dead the second I walked into the room. They did allow me to hold her for a few minutes before they pried her away from me. I appologized to her for going to bed that night. I still do. I wish I had stayed up all night then she would still be here. It has been three years since she passed of SIDS and as long as SIDS has been around taking innocent infants from loving parents, there is still no explanation or even a possible cure. How can a person have closure when there is nothing that anyone knows about the killer of our children. If there were one thing I could do for every parent of a sids death it would be to give them a cure. As I said earlier, it has been 3 years and I still can't deal with it. I am not seeking professional help because I don't want to tell a stranger my problems but I guess I'm doing that now. I have three other children ranging from 11 to 1 and a half years. but none of them can take the place of the one I lost. I love my other children but it brings me pain to watch them grow and no that I will never be able to see her do the things they do. Anyway please, if you have any advice on how to deal with this unbearable realization don't hesitate to e-mail me at scoobydooismyhero2003@yahoo.com I don't know where else to turn. I need someone to talk to that has been through this situation.
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