Stories of Lost Children
My Stillborn Jolie
by Jennifer Tyner, Buffalo, NY, U.S.A.
At 19 I became pregnant with my son Jayden. He was born premature at 7 months, but after a 3 week hospitalization I brought home a healthy beautiful baby boy. When my fiance Gene and I found out we were pregnant again 4 years later, we hoped for a little girl to complete the "2 kids, golden retriever, perfect family." After an ultrasound on 3/23/05 determined we were in fact going to have a little girl, I was on cloud 9. Who would've thought that 2 months later on May 22, 2005 my little girl who had been so active in my tummy would no longer have a heartbeat? How could something so horrific happen to such good people? When we live in a world where young mothers are throwing their babies in trash cans, or babies are being born HIV positive or crack addicted, why was my daughter chosen to leave at only 6 1/2 months of conception? The week before my BEAUTIFUL daughter Jolie was born silently was my graduation from college. I look at my graduation photos of my swollen tummy and think if I had only known then what I know now. I have the loving support of my fiance, my mom, and other family members but it's not enough. I want to hear my daughter laugh, comfort her when she cries, heck I'd even happily change a poopie diaper right now! I just can't ever imagine this heaviness on my heart going away.
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