Stories of Lost Children
Believe in ANGELS
by Becky, Sioux Falls, SD, U.S.A.
Sorry but I have to go into detail cause I haven't had the chance to. I'm witing this like many others I just don't know where to go anymore. My entire furture was torn away from me this past September when I lost my infant daughter Danielle. I was 39 weeks along and early in the morning around 3:00 AM I woke up went to the bathroom (like we all do) and everything seemed fine at that point until I layed back down. I rolled over instantly to wake my husband. I told him that I was sure that my water had broke and it was time to go to the hospital. So he called his mom (she came over to watch our other three children). After he made the call he looked at me and said that it wasn't water you were passing but blood, and lots of it. So I called the hospital to let them know we were on our way(we only live six blocks away and the doctors told us it would have taken longer for an ambulance to get to our house then what it would for us to drive). When we got to the hospital and were admitted to our room, the nurse couldn't find the babies heartbeat. When she did it was at 40 I remember her saying. By this time I had lost lots of blood and I was going into shock and my husband and I had no idea what was going on. I've had three other children and nothing like this has ever happened. The doctors and nurses rushed me to surgery (which I have never had either). We found out after the C-Section that the procedure was not to save the baby but to save me. My daughter Danielle had to be intubeted after delivery just so our family, close friends, relatives,and most of all our children could hold her and say their goodbyes. She looked so perfect. There was nothing wrong with her that we could tell but they ran a test called an EEG and found that she was brain dead and would never have had a fighting chance. The doctors figure for the start to the finish Danielle had been without oxygen for more then 45 minutes. We spent as much time holding her as we could but that isn't enough when it is your future being taken from you. I really just feel like I need a friend to cry with so I hope it's okay if I cry with you. I believe in angels. Becky I know you are watching out for us (I strongly believe that you gave daddy all those pains so he would go to the emergency to be diagnosed with diabetes last month and I've heard you playing with Dustin's toys that the batteries are not even in)
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