Stories of Lost Children
My Sweet Rylee
by Niki, , ,
I lost my daughter, Rylee, 2 years, 6 months and 4 days ago today, September 21, 2002. She is a beautiful, big eyed, friendly, smiley little girl. I only have one daughter and she was and is by far the light of my life. I miss her dearly and miss the person that I was with her. That exuberant, joyful part of me, along with many others, died with her. Her death was a sudden death, one of which autopsy was never able to determine what the exact cause was. She ultimately died of toxic shock. I lived out of a bottle for at least the first full year. I have since greatly improved in that area, only determined to be sure I keep her memory alive.
I was also a single mom for a large part of the time with Rylee. The day she died I was out of town and received the call. I didn't believe it. I insisted on seeing her, thinking they have to be wrong and have the wrong little girl and just didn't know it. I made several phone calls and found where she was that evening as I was arriving back in Denver. The lady I spoke with over the phone discouraged me from seeing her as she was at the coroners and had many tubes in her, although she did give me the option of seeing her. At that point I had so many drinks that I practically passed out. I did however get on the phone and immediately had arranged what mortuary to bring her as this was the quickest way for me to see her. I finally got to see her first thing the next morning. I cannot describe the feelings and thoughts running through my head at this time. I have been seeing a counselor every week since. The first year I was in counseling twice a week. I thank God for my counselor as I do not think I could have survived without her help. At this point in my life, I feel I am needing some kind of other support as well. I have not been able to reach out to others until this point in my life and feel this may help me a great deal. If anyone on this sight reads this and has any suggestions please do not hesitate to respond. I would greatly appreciate it. My email address is VBUNK4@aol.com Thank you and God Bless each and every one of you and your children. Niki
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