Stories of Lost Children
Our Angel Fallon
by L., White Plains, NY, U.S.A.
During Fallon’s illness, we all hoped and prayed for Fallon’s recovery and eventual survival from this devastating disease. I was the biggest believer that this would occur and that Fallon would be a success story that we would all be talking about for years to come. I even believed that when they took her off life support that she would be able to breath on her own, miraculously recover and say - "I OK Mommy". This unfortunetley was not to be. My biggest fear today is that many of you may leave this celebration of Fallon’s Life and be disappointed that this particular "Miracle" did not occur. Your prayers were not in vain – Many unexpected and truly wonderful miracles DID occur. Many of us reconnected with friends and family we haven’t heard from in years. Some of us reconnected to our faith. Some of us may have reexamined what’s important in life and what’s not. Some of us may have taken the extra time to spend with our children or you may have even hugged them a little tighter Some of us even did the Rosary for the first time in thirty years. Your prayers and support have carried us through this period and continue to give us strength. Don’t for a second believe that we did not feel all your love and positive energy! Your prayers and support also carried Fallie. If you will, please just give me a moment to boast about our beautiful daughter and her life. Fallon from day one was a different type of soul. She was always this sweet, gentle, and delightful being. She was, as many a mom wish for, a VERY EASY child. On the outside, her effectious smile, her gorgeous silky hair, and unbelievably blue eyes seemed destined to take her far. She was striking. On the inside, and for all of those who actually knew Fallon can attest, she possed this unbelievable spirit and TRUE angelic nature. She was an ANGEL. Fallon never gave Louis or I a hard time about anything – her needs and wants were simple. She never had real attachments to anything aside from her bottle and her family. She found pleasure and joy in the basics. She loved laughter, being with dogs and friends, taking rides in the car, watering the flowers, taking a tubby, watching TV going to the beach with her dad, engaging in group hugs and she especially loved just being home. Fallon even had a kind way to tell people that she’d either had enough of them or to go away and leave her alone. Something I certainly lack. She basically just looked them in the eye and said "bye-bye" as she waved them off. It was as though she never wanted to hurt anyone’s feelings. For those of you who may not know, Fallon has basically thrown up since birth. And as soon as she was able to speak she would say, after she was sick from vomiting, that she was "OK" or as she would say "I OK MOMMY". She was even trying to comfort me after her pain. During her diagnosed illness she continued to show us all unbelievable strength and courage. Instead of "fighting" and crying during the too many to count, blood pressure and temperature checks, the needles, pokes and prodding that occurred to her, sometimes on an hourly basis she simply learned how to zone out – She’d count – One, Two, Three… She made it as high as forty-seven one time and then she’d start all over again. This past Sunday, which was Father’s day, Fallon coded and had to be revived at about 8:30 a.m. She loved her daddy so much that she chose to hang on for one more day so that his father’s day would not be forever ruined. She was always thinking of others! Her fortitude and courage were endless! She inspired me on a daily basis as well as all those she encountered. If I had known prior to Fallon’s birth that her life would have been SO SHORT IN TIME I most likely would have asked God to spare me the pain and for him to keep her. Thank God, God doesn’t let us in on His MASTER PLAN. I thank God for his "lending" of Fallon to us and even though 2 years will Never seem enough, We appreciated every minute spent with her. Her Presence in our lives has been the greatest Present we could have ever received. She has been our greatest teacher. I think I’ve said enough. So, I will end on a famous and well used line of Fallon’s – BYE BYE and WE'RE OK.
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