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Kameron Austin
by DeAnn Knavel, Liberal, KS, U.S.A.

This is my story of my beautiful baby girl, Kameron Austin Knavel.

She was perfect in every way but God saw fit to take her to Heaven.

I had a perfectly normal pregnancy, except for the morning sickness every morning. My husband and I were so happy to be having another baby. Our daughter Karma, 2, was getting excited about getting to become a BIG Sister. She went to all my DR. visits with me and always loved it when we got to hear the heart beating.

On January 30th, 2004 I knew something was wrong. I hadn't felt Kameron move for 24 hrs but didn't really think much of it the day before because babies have down days too. I was getting scared so I called the doctor's office and they sent me to the hospital. My husband and I drove to the hospital in silence. I was so scared. When we got to the hospital they searched and searched for her heartbeat, but never found it. They did 2 sonograms and nothing. Our baby was gone.

The Dr. induced me and I went thru labor knowing that at the end I wouldn't have a happy healthy baby to hold at the end. It really didn't sink in until I got ready to push. I didn't want to deliver Kameron, I wanted it all to be a dream that when someone pinched me I would wake up. I delivered and Kameron was perfect. Even at only 7 1/2 months she was perfect. The hospital was great they let us keep her with us for as long as we wanted to. We took pictures and held her. We cried a lot, and talked to her. They did and autopsy and found nothing. No reason why her heart stopped beating, no answers. The next day I was dismissed to go home. Handing her back to the nurses and walking out that door with empty arms was the hardest thing I have EVER done.

The next week is pretty much a blur. We made the funeral arrangements and got everything ready for saying goodbye. Keith had me make the major decision for the funeral and I let him make the decisions about what to do with the nursery and headstone.

I have so many questions without any answers. I may never have answers on this side of eternity, but I do know that one day I will be reunited in Heaven with Kameron and we will have all of eternity to catch up on all the time that we missed here on earth. This doesn't mean I don't miss Kameron and that I don't wish she was here. But I do know that I will see her again someday.

I love you Kameron, Mommy

DKnavel@excite.com


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