Stories of Lost Children
Angel Not Ever Forgotten
by Dieta, Denton, U.S.A.
When I found out I was pregnant I cried. I was so happy, I was going to be a mother and was going to get the privelege of bringing an angel into this world. Everything was going fine and then I went to the doctor for my six months check-up. I wasn't scared. I was doing all the right stuff, the baby was moving a lot. I wasn't worried at all. Then the doctor measured my stomach and looked worried. He told me to go to the hospital and that I needed a sonogram because I was bigger than I should have been for six months. They did the sonogram. I asked what was wrong, they said, your doctor has to tell you. I went back to him the next week, he sit me down and simply said, your daughter won't be born alive. She has an enlarged heart too big for her chest. I cried for days. I went to Fort Worth, a 6 hour trip, to see specialists. They told me to have an abortion, that she was going to die anyway. I told them no. I went back to Odessa, where I lived, and had sonograms every week. One week, the doctor says, go now to Fort Worth, we will make the arrangements, she has to be born now. Her heart was getting too big for her chest. We rushed to Fort Worth. I had her on August 14, 1994, she wasn't supposed to born alive. But she was, with a single cry, she was in this world, and she let everyone know she was here. They rushed her to the neonatal critical care unit. She was doing better than expected. When she was nine days old, she was doing really well, she was breathing a little on her own. They were not having to give her so much heart medicine. Then I got the call. I had to go to the hospital right away. They asked me what I wanted to do, I told them pull the plug. She died in my arms at 2:30 in the afternoon. I held her once, heard her cry once. The moment she died, she looked up at me and cried a little bit. I cried a lot. I still miss her a lot. She would have been 6 next month. This is my story of my angel that I will never forget. Thank you for listening
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