Stories of Lost Children
My Oldest Son
by Mary Lujan, Clovis, NM, U.S.A.
I lost my 20 year old son on November 10 2003. It was on a Monday. As I was leaving work, security came over told me they needed to talk to me. When they told me the police officer was comming over and that something had happened at my house, right away my heart fell. My son Anthony had committed sucide. His younger brother found him in the rest room. Anthony had been depressed. The later part of October, he told me he was not sleeping and did not want to wake up in the morning. So I asked him if he wanted to go to a counsellor. He said yes made the appointment. I went with him and when he came out I noticed he was crying. I then asked him what happened and he said that that the counsellor made him feel worse then he did when he went in. I then asked him if he wanted to go to Albuquerque to see some one there. He went on October 31, 2003. On November 10 he commited suicide. This pain is like no other. Anthony you are on my mind and my heart every day. I wish I knew why or could have done something to help you. I will always love you! And I pray that someday we will see each other in heaven. And we can feel no pain.
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